My Life and my WILL

I got out of a drug and alcohol rehab center about 6 years ago. In a short time I gave my life to Jesus Christ. It wasn't mine any more and for me it was an easy concept to understand as my way didn't work!!! My will or what I call my soul, where Ive operated from for most of my life was a different battle. My soul includes my mind, will and emotions. Meaning, I do what I want, when I want, as often as I want and it better make me feel good!! You probably know someone like that.  Once I was out of treatment, I almost immediately started work driving heavy equipment. One day as I arrived at work the yard was shut down due to an excess of rain. I stopped in at my parent’s house and my dad was home so we had breakfast and watched a teaching video. The man explained Matthew 6:33, about seeking God first and having God supply all other needs. Huh, I thought. I pretty much did most of my life backwards so maybe this guy is right. I challenged God: You got me sober; no one else could do that, how about you get me a job. That day I quit my job as a heavy equipment operator and began to seek God first.

I went anywhere God was. I kept busier than when I was working. I went to every bible study, prayer meeting, A.A. meeting; anywhere and anything that I could learn or serve at. I never asked or looked for a job. I was testing God and was sure he didn’t need my help. Six months went by. We made trips to the local food bank, we found groceries on our front step and there was always gas in the car. It was humbling, but all our needs were met.

One day after a bible study at a housing ministry for mentally ill men, the director asked me if I would like a job working at one of the houses. I felt God say “this is the job I got for you”. I had tears in my eyes as I answered yes.

My first year working at Jericho Road, I provided supervision at a care home for men who struggle with mental illness. That job taught me to love unconditionally and built the foundation for my service to God now. I love helping people and passing on what God is teaching me, and I know this job helps me more than it helps them. 5 years later and still working on surrendering my will on a daily biases, I direct a 12 bed, addiction treatment program. The bible tells me to be spirit led. That is my battle daily. Surrendering to Gods will and not mine. When I do, God can work thru me. Join with me in this battle and God will use you in ways you would never imagine. "Make a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God"

THANK YOU JESUS!!!!